Ok, I was at the hospital. Was able to say goodbye, which is good. Home with the kids now and hoping to do some homework. Most of my profs have responded with, DON'T do any homework, let it go, you can catch up on it. Which is really great. However I think I need to do some, or my mind really will be going a million miles a minute. I have thought of smoking actually, but of course will not even consider that. But when you have that history, and shit piles up like this, your mind says, you know a smoke would really do a lot to help you relax. Breathing also helps me relax and that is a much better option!
I am feeling a bit lonely, but I suppose that is to be expected.