I am making my way back to center. I really wish I had time to write my long introspective post. Such good stuff.
I am embarking on a weekend that is going to leave a mark on my life. Last night I went to a discussion with Richard Gere, Bobby McFerrin, Phil Glass, and a local lama. The discussion was on Buddhism and Art. More specifically Spirituality and Art. It was amazing. Richard Gere was amazing. Bobby McFerrin was amazing. I went with my (VERY) Platonic friend "E" who is one of the most spiritual men I have ever met. After the discussion we wanted to avoid the parking structure fiasco so we walked to a local bar and had a couple of drinks and digested the discussion a bit. He is an artist himself only has not been creating so much lately due to many reasons, but when I took him home he brought me in to his house to show me his artwork. Mostly he paints......his work is incredible......I can't believe that he doesn't do it much. His degree is in art. I have been missing my art so much, I may need to get my paints out and do some creating.
I digress. The panel made some comments that burned into my heart. I am at a place that I have very little time to process it. What time I do have this weekend, must be spent studying! I think I will take Monday night, after my final to simply write and process. Tuesday I hit the new term, so I really only have Monday night.
I will say this. I may have said it already this week, but this is the lowest, most painful, most frightened I have ever been, this is life changing to the core of me and when I come out on the other side, I am going to really be grateful for this time. (I am already grateful, but you get my point.)