Time to vent

Wow. Wow. Holy Mother of God. Today was likely one of the worst days of my life. I hate feeling out of control and that was the entire day. I ran the entire day from one fire to the next and then had to fire someone. As I sit here, trying to bring myself back to center, I read an email that one of the most beautiful ladies I have ever had the privilege to know, died. Nothing that is happening in my life could compare to the suffering she endured as she fought cancer for the last 3 years. She was truly one of the most incredible, giving, loving person to have walked on this earth. So although I came here to try to release some of my negative energy, all I can think of is how selfish I am. I think that I need to stop writing and just be for a bit. Such a lonely feeling.